Archive for March 24th, 2010
March 24th, 2010 | 
Author: Don’t get me wrong:
“Just because I’m losing. Doesn’t mean I’m lost… Doesn’t mean I’ll stop.”
After yesterday’s dramatic exit from the Web, I thought I should come back and clearify. I haven’t given up on dreaming of a better me. The blog will continue, I will keep trying to get a degree, I will try and look my best…
From now on it will be on my terms. My new life motto will be: Does it work, does it make me happy? If the answer is no, I drop it like a bad habit and move on — FYI bad habits are very hard to drop. I’m not motivated by the long-term and necessary; I’m motivated by the new and exciting, at the same time I have trouble facing the unknown. Yes, I’m a walking ball of contridictions. But finally just being myself is what’s going to make me happy. I’ve got to stop worrying about the future and who I’m supposed to be. There’s no one keeping score; there’s no prize at the end of the maze. The maze IS the prize. So, I might as well enjoy the scenery, I’ll get to where I want to be (on some things) eventually.
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