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Archive for July 20th, 2010

After giving another girl some advice on a problem she was having, I realized that I was culpable of the very thing she was complaining about. She claims her boyfriend just wouldn’t shut up about a girl he claims he WAS madly deeply in love with. After a similar situation in 2,9 year relationship with an ex who later claimed to have “never been in love” with me, I told her  kick him to the curb.

Let me extrapolate. My ex told me off the bat that he’s in love with this girl. He met this girl when he was five and fell in love with her from the moment she said “Hi, my name is D.” He approached her later in his teen years, but she rejected him. I thought “that’s okay, he hasn’t seen her in years now and she rejected him. I’m going to be a better girlfriend than this girl could ever be.”

• First Mistake: Trying to compete with a fantasy
• Second Mistake: Thinking a guy is over the girl after she rejects him
• Third Mistake: Falling for a guy who has betrothed his heart to another at age 5

Like I said after being with me for almost 3 years he tells me he loved me because I loved him and that he was never “in love” with me. *grumble grumble*

Fine! After a lot of other sh** he put me through what with all his emotional/psychological/financial problems , I just feel so angry. Mind you , this didn’t happen the day we broke up. Gradually as we spoke after the break-up more and more did I realize he was just using me as a therapist/bank. I’m just glad he had the common decency to pay me back [almost] every penny he owed me, which, trust me, was a pretty penny.

However, this is what I’m talking about – a lot. My ex!

I’m just so hurt by what he did I just feel like venting all the time, and I’m sad to say my BF is the one who bears the brunt of most of my continuous gal-spewing about my ex. I just hope he doesn’t think I’m going to leave him to go back to my ex — not even to save humanity — or ,like the girl on the forum, get justifiably upset/ jealous.